I don’t know why but my mind wandered to the idea of legacy the other night while I was rocking Jacob to sleep in his near pitch-dark room, with his white crib and the white whale that hangs over it barely visible.
From as early as I can remember of being a kid, I wanted legacy. Back then it was to redirect the legacy course of some bad branches in my family history. When I entered the science field, I dreamt of a legacy of being recognized for perhaps helping connect the dots in neurophysiological pathways in feeding satiety, or maybe on the ecological level revolutionizing the way we intercept and detect invasive insects. Or maybe I’d be remembered throughout the generations for a photograph I took.
Enlightened, now I know all of that was misguided.
I was nearer to the truth as a child. Legacy, or at least my legacy, does have to do with family. Just not in the way I thought of it 26 years ago or so.
I’m convinced now more than ever that its all for them, my children.
I don’t want to be remembered because of a photograph, I want them to remember with photographs. I don’t want to be remembered for innovation in science, I want them to remember my innovative energy in their childhood and upbringing. I want them to know, without a doubt, that I gave them my all. I surrendered everything else that was me, in order for it to become them.
And I want them to know that my legacy is them.
The yellowing of our 100 acre woods is pure magic that I can hardly contain my anxious anticipation of every autumn. It’s here finally and oh be still my wild heart watching my children look at the dancing glow of canopies with such wonder as well.
Here’s to legacy…for my children, my grandchildren, their children and all the further diverging branches of the tree that is my family ancestry.
“Home is people. Not a place. If you go back there after the people are gone, then all you can see is what is not there any more.”
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