April Showers & Reflections On Growth

You know what they say about April showers and all…

What girl doesn’t love flowers?? And for those that do, the best thing you can do is plant them so you enjoy perennial gifts to yourself 🙂 Here’s a little dose of the flowers starting to pop up around my gardens and property.

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When I used to think about what success would look like for myself, I pictured it as being an established scientist, widely publishing my research in peer-reviewed journals, with my name being easily recognizable/associated with a particular field of science. Maybe it would in the research area of biting flies, maybe it would be in managing agricultural insect pests?

Then I was laid off from my job as a scientist. And it couldn’t have come at a better time because there was a deep unrest and a lack of satisfaction brewing within my soul and had been for some time.

But one of the hardest things to do was to re-define what I thought success meant.

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The greatest fine art of the future will be the making of a comfortable living from a small piece of land.” Abraham Lincoln

When I first started down this road developing my photography business, I used to think success for a photographer would be getting your images in magazines and being completely booked up with wedding/portrait/freelance clients.

To be busy

After all, some of the photographers I looked up to and who’s work I followed were always talking about how busy they were. Constantly on the go, constantly traveling, forever busy. That must be what success looks like.

Nah. Just smoke and mirrors.

Who wants to be busy, anyways? And the idea of constantly being on the road traveling, never home, makes me panicky.

When I think about what success means to me now, its the ability to merely make a living that allows me to maintain the small piece of earth that I get to call my own. Success is figuring out how to make money at what I love doing, turning what I (did) do for recreation and a hobby into a vocation. Success is figuring out how not to be just a busy life, in a constant state of motion and chaos. Success is identifying the people who are pillars in your life, that add structure and strength to you, and keeping the rest who just create noise and erosion at a safe distance.

Success then is continuing to keep that balance.

Helping or hindering? Better or worse? Closer or further from my ideal life, my success?? Those are the questions I continually ask myself now when trying to make business and life decisions.
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And what do you know, it doesn’t happen over night. Which is such a bummer and something I struggle at because I have the patience of a hummingbird. But like the garden, there is a dormant season, a growing season, and blooming season. DSC_4943edit fbMy garden is my most beautiful masterpiece” Claude Monet

I can’t wait to be tending garden beds and painting my landscape with colors, fragrances, and edibles. The wait is not much longer, if not already over.

No season lasts forever. Not in the garden, not in business, and not in life. The trick is to be aware of what comes next, and to prepare.


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